can i complained here? about people much more nagging and insincere than me. about they who get the attention from the good guy. about life that seemingly a never ending math exam which i always failed to pass. am i constantly do bad things? am i not good enough? am i that unattractive? am i invisible? why? when? it's a sad sad situation..

life is great so far. however i always missed something. something is missing inside. grateful is something i always think about first when i feel grumpy and unsatisfied. i think i forgotten to be grateful by saying thank you and showing it. i'm having my pms i think. all this emotion sum up into my heart and i barely know how to chanel it. to you where i got my blood, my life and everything. sorry for being like a b**ch pap! you know i care and love you right?!

so far

It's almost a month since I've worked in one of the biggest Radio group in the city (or country? pro'lly..). The most grateful thing I've felt so far, was I able to enjoy my job here even though I could earn more elsewhere. Idealist? Hmm, not really. But now I know what it feels like to be working in your area of expertise. Every person got their own competence and so far, I've done what I was able to do. Haven't shown my best but I believe I could, later on. Mmm, what else. Oh! I've met a lot of different people. I mean, A LOT! A perfect melting pot to learn and analyze people 'eh?! :D

The negative side so far? I think I gain weight in just a couple of weeks. Ack!!!


Lagi-lagi lupa berbagi, lupa bersyukur. Pantas saja ada yang kurang rasanya.

do you still know me?